I am Kristián Abrman. Was born in Czech republic 1987. I am quite normal guy. I have a wife and a little daughter. Live in a small cottage in a forrest by the river with our dog and cat. In my daily life I work as a medical doctor, specialized in Orthopaedics a Traumatology. But there is something what doesn't allow me to identify with that too much. That something is probably the feeling, that our western medicine itself is terminally ill.

I grew up in my family as a Loved child. Of course it doesn't mean I hadn't been suppressed and programmed in my unique way. I had often been witnessing mistreatment of my brother and my mum, but was the youngest and did't have the courage to intervene. On the other hand I was always very handy, clever, smooth. But it was actually terrible, to be the mollycoddle and to see my beloved brother suffering at the same time.. But naturally I din't want to be affected in the same way. So I behaved. Best at school, great in sports. Scared of failure, of not being perfect, which might have ended up in a lack of provided love. What was abundant? The fear of something happening to us, fear of poverty..

So was I accepted to Med School and graduated without any troubles. But was it actually my decision? I don't really know. I can't remember if I ever wanted to do anything else. But education and especially medicine was a dream of our ancestors. Our grandfather was studying to be a doctor, when the universities were closed by the nazis during the WW2. Never had the opportunity to finish. Some years later he was imprisoned by the communists for helping people to emigrate out of the country. No education possible for my mum. So me and my brother were the first in line to accomplish. As I said I don't know, if it was my will, but it actually doesn't matter. The live brought me here a so I am.

The thing is, there definitely has to be the desire to help people, if you decide to be a doctor. It is quite noble, but also kind of naive to think you can do it right in a modern hospital. You can not see around the corner though and you get to know, how western medical industry works, only after you enter it.

I had been lucky and received the awakening call soon enough. Even before I finished the Med School. My first big eye-opening experience was my hitch-hiking trip to India. It was couple of years after 9/11 and the whole world lived in a great terror of terrorism. Everyone tried to discourage me from my plan and persuade me, that traveling to places like Pakistan is direct death penalty. Only when I had actually been there I realized, how biased we are. The people there were absolutely amazing. I haven't met such friendly, tolerant and hospitable people anywhere else. And only because of the fear installed in us can we think something else and even refuse to get to know the truth by our own experience. (Funny thing – when I came back, I got stabbed right in Prague. So where is it dangerous?)

This same journey also opened up some deeper perception of spirituality in me. I was born in a catholic environment and didn't really know anything else. But the way the religion presented the relationship to God felt very superficial, artificial, without any real feelings to me, and forced me by itself to cut off. So was I some kind of catholic atheist. When I got to know people living their belief in islamic, Hindu or buddhist tradition, I peeked in a fact, that there is truly something bigger, that connects us all, even though the religions divide and separate us. I did not understand it that much then, but it was a first glimpse of the Truth behind.

The next year I studied in Norway, got into some clash with law and had to pay a fine I didn't have money for. So I had to find a part-time job and actually earned some extra funds. And that's how my life changing story started.

I set off on a long backpacking journey throughout Latin America from Mexico to Argentina. The place that meant the most to me was the Amazon jungle. I had the privilege to be introduced to the Wisdom of sacred Ayahuasca brew. And after that my Life has never been the same as before. I got to see, how restricted I used to be by my materialism. It opened my consciousness to the sense of Oneness with everything, of being Love, of the importance to live in the Heart and not to fall in the mind-wanderings. It was such a powerful experience I returned back to the Colombian jungle several times in the years to come for some more knowledge.

I fell in Love with the Life, with theNature, our planet Earth, all the Creatures. I felt Peace, Gratitude, Strength, Courage, Authenticity. I started to admire the indigenous way of living, natural means of Healing, shamanism. Exploring the states of expanded consciousness through different techniques or entheogenic plant medicines has ever since been an important part of my journey. This more natural approach to healing became such a significant aspect of my medical framework, that when I came back to the Med School to pass my last degree examinations, the professor who presided asked me, which specialization I would like to choose, I replied I wanted to be a Shaman. I won't forget the shock in his eyes...

A lot has changed since then. I took up employment. Got a family. Forgot a lot, got trapped in a stereotyped routine, stressed, angry, mean, judging. But never fell back into that previous ignorance. Always realizing, that it's my Ego fighting again.. No transitory high consciousness experience can take it from you at once for good. They are great helpers though. Techniques like mindfulness, meditation, ecstatic dance, holotropic breathwork, fasting or dark therapy has been showing me the way, expanded my perception, enabled me to contact the God in me. But the task is to bring it from those journeys back right here, to integrate slowly everything what one has learned and Be it in everyday life. That's the real Wholeness, Holiness and Health.

When I had to decide for some real hospital field I wanted to do the traumatology, because it felt it actually has some sense to repair someones broken leg. Quite comically I was the only one in last many many years, who wasn't admitted to this department in our town due to personal capacity reasons and had to enter into orthopedics. Usually it's the other way round, because orthopedics is more fancy. Well, Universe apparently intended it this way in my case. So I have seen hundreds and thousands of people with some kind of pain. Beside my official specialization curriculum I have been studying and trying to implement more Holistic approaches (acupuncture, manual and energetic medicine, quantum healing, craniosacral biodynamics..) to see through those symptoms a to help people realize different aspects of Health. But the profit oriented western medicine system in conjunction with a patient not motivated to take responsibility for own health is a killer.

With my wife we established a healing center Maloka. Named after amazonian shamanic ritual shelter, a place to connect with your inner self and higher powers. For many years I operated as a medical switchman, redirecting suitable open-minded patients from the hospital to this alternative space. It made sense to me to combine all the accessible modalities in this integrative medicine mindset. But as time went by the inhuman heartless ambience of the hospital overwhelmed me. I realized I got kind of lost in fulfilling financial needs and suppressed my ideals and dreams. It had become more difficult to stay. But I didn't know, how would I have managed the question of money, if I just had quit my job and started full-time in person healing business. So I began to move our knowledges, skills and ideas into the online environment. It was something completely new to me, but I trusted the process as I was lead into it.

In the whole Maloka concept I am only one half. The other polarity represents my wife Radka. She is my greatest teacher (with my daughter of course). I respect her very much for the Purity of her intentions, her incredible Compassion and Helpfulness. She has taught me so much about my ego. And it hurt both of us a lot. But I am very Grateful for that. She always kept me on the path of seeking the Truth and Harmony. She is an unbelievable healer, craniosacral biodynamic practitioner. I appreciate very much I have the opportunity to refer anyone ready to such a Divine Being.